Talk about your relationship with your gods. How do you build these relationships? What are they like to you?
This is quite complicated, so complicated in fact that I had to take quite a long pause to formulate the reply.
In the most general sense, my deities are my inspirations, my role models, they incarnate qualities that I admire and wish to emulate or principles that resonate with me. They are sources of neverending awe and amazement.
Seth and Anat are my Lieges and principal role models. They inspire me to fight and to make Ma’at through political action, activism and, more recently, heka. They are fighters, relentless, ruthless if need be, unstoppable and terrifying. They have taught me to never give up on the things that matter to me and lent me the strength to overcome the bad moments. If you allow me to borrow from Star Wars, they are my Dark Side mentors, pushing me to grow and strengthen myself, sending me on missions and training me through trials so that I will be able to do more on their behalf.
In addituon to that, meeting Anat was a revelation because of zir non-binariety, which resonated deeply within me. Zie gave me the validation I required to stop worrying that I was doing something wrong and just get on with my own non-binary life.
Ash is a bit less intensely present, but is nonetheless important in my spiritual landscape. He is in the road that beckons, in the itch to travel and explore, a benevolent, laid-back mentor figure, a bit like a cool uncle that has travelled the world and does his utmost to pass the travelling bug to you.
Nebt-Het is quiet and comforting and has taught me to look after the people I love and myself, but at the same time she is also daring and carefree, ready to enjoy life to the utmost and find beauty and joy in every day. I am still learning her ways, but I feel more and more kinship with her as I go along. She is a much needed calming presence in my life.
Ra is a benevolent, grandparently figure to me. He didn’t properly reach out for me, I decided to worship him because of Seth, mainly, so my admiration and love for him are strongly coloured by Seth’s loyalty and devotion to him. He’s not as loud as the others, a bit more remote and discreet, but ever-present and comforting with his warmth and patience. He is nurturing, like a patient gardener, but the burning strength is just beneath the surface, waiting to rise with awesome power.
Asherah invited herself in my life, letting me know in no uncertain terms that she wanted a place in my practice. I had always had affinities for sea-worship, also thanks to my mom, who apparently was divined as a daughter of Yemanjà, the Afro-Brasilian deity of the sea, in her youth, so I accepted her almost immediately, especially after she saved my partner and I from a washing-machine related flood. She feels quite businesslike and invested of authority, like a diplomat or the head of a Venetian merchant family. I still have no idea what she seeks from me, but I often do political heka in her honour.
To build a relationship, I mostly read up on my deities, trying to understand them as much as I can. In order to do so, I inevitably end up writing stuff about them. I also try to comnect them with various aspects of my life (pop culture, favourite activities and so on) and occasionally try some divination.